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Monday, June 16, 2008
You made me think, am I really of such insignificance.
It made me feel that, really, I can do without you, cause now I dont' even know if you exist.
Or somehow, if you really bother about this anymore.
It feels more like you've gotten bored of this r/s and you don't care anymore.
Am I not right?
How long was it since you gave me a msg, asking me how I am and showing me the slightest concern. That was enough to make my day.
I can only rmb the msg you gave me last was, 'Darling, are you free on sat?'
I really am not asking alot from you. I know you've got your studies, your family, your everything and I suppose I'm not included.
Sometimes we don't even msg for a day, but it's not that I will grumble over it, cause I can still feel that u're with me. When I tell my frens about it, they'll still be pretty amazed as to how bf/gf can not talk to eat other for a day.
I know, army, but hell, it's not like army is here yet and if army is here of coz i'll be freaking fine with it, cause it all so reasonable, of coz i'll be able to understand.
I asked for one of your day for this wk, last wk.
You said, I don't need to book you, just tell you when.
And I said I'd be good if we go out shopping.
Okay so we've agreed on monday. Right, and eventually a few days later you said you are going for soccer 4-6 in the evening.
You said since I've bought you a shirt and I went shopping with Michelle already, it'd be alright if we don't go shopping.
But do you realise, shopping is not the word. Spending time together is.
The reason why I said, let's go shopping, is because, I WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU.
That's why I chose to book you for a day, and leave you alone for the rest of the week cause I know you need to study!
So then, I kept quiet, I said it's okay, since it's been so long since you played soccer, just go ahead.
I tried to make up for the time by being nice and all to msg you n show a little of my concern.
But what really disappoints me was when I thought when I msged you, you were studying thus you didn't have the time to reply.
Then, you told me you were watching show. I'm like alright with it. But, the show is just too nice for you to even reply my msg?
You took like hours to reply to my pathetic one message and by now I'm so used to it,
I FREAKING CAN'T BE BOTHERED.
It's like four, five times already my dear.
Same goes, I just asked 'How's your day darling?'
*2 HOURS LATER*
The reply, 'I'm sry darling, was watching show, i go slp alr. Very tired now. Nitez'
Is it that we've ran out of topic and we've got nothing to talk about anymore?
Like at the parade square on sat, we were sitting there after dinner, and I was bored so I said,
let's talk. And you said, 'talk what?'. Have we really got nothing to say, nothing to share, at all? Like I had to start the conversation?
You know how you used to say, if you need to talk to me, just tell me you need to talk or msg you. I msged you today, wanting to start a conversation, wanting to tell you I did my hair, and everything. WANT, WANT-ED.
And,
I
Couldn't
Be
Bothered,
cause I'm not freaking gonna msg you anymore.
You don't bother, why should I.
Is that even unreasonable of me?
You know I really think that this relationship is going nowhere.
If having a boyfriend and not having one has got no difference,
I TOTALLY SEE NO POINT IN IT.
I used to keep so many sweet msges of urs. So, very, often.
Now, it just changed. I'm not blind I can see.
I don't want to be unreasonable and I don't want to be time-consuming.
I don't need msges everyday,
I don't you calling me everyday,
Just prove to me that you care.
Just let me know I'm still loved,
cause I can't feel it already.
Just be there when I need someone to talk to.
I won't take a fraction more than your gym time, your watching show time, your dota-ing time.
I promise.
I really just need that little.Labels: KILL ME
LET'S BITCH TGT, BITCHES x) ;
